Confused, Lost.

Sometimes i wonder,
whether it's actually worth all my efforts and time.

Sometimes I wonder whether,
i made the right choices.

Sometimes i wonder,
what am i actually want to get out of doing it.

Sometimes i wonder,
whether people can be trusted.

Sometimes i wonder,
what is the reason for being there?

Sometimes i wonder,
whether i'll stand a chance to be in that position.

Sometimes i wonder,
why i take things for granted.
Sometimes i wonder,
why i take people for granted.

It's when i loose them,
and start to suffer,
then i realise i always take things for granted.
Just why?
Why am i not cherishing things?

Are friends made,
just so to hurt yourself?
Are memories created,
just to be destroyed?

It's time i stop,
placing hopes in people,
only to be disappointed.

It's time i stop,
thinking about saving this friendship,
because it's already dying.

It's time i stop,
thinking that you'll always be there for me,
but i know you won't.

It's time i stop,
pondering over the same questions,
on why friendships don't last.

Because i know, the friendship's over.

I wonder why i'm always the one,
feeling this way.
I wonder what friends are for.
Sometimes, i find some friends to be a pain in the neck,
or
an extra burden,
which i don't see the point of carrying.

Sometimes i wonder why people leave for other people.
How long can one person bring happiness to you?
When would you realise that you can only be yourself,
with people that love you just the way you are.

Sometimes i think,
making friends are the worsts things ever created,
because there are lots of risk-factors.
I just hope,
that one day,
we both would turn back,
and realise,
we had wonderful friendship years.

If only,
i can re-live the past,
and be at that scene again.

"Time is not it's friend, this might be the last chance to tell her that you love her,
Here i go Again. - Casting Crowns"

Adding on, yes. I was the one who started the 3faith blog. Be shocked, be surprised, be startled.

Amirul was right, i shouldn't be so selfish, and not think of myself and do something doe a group of people - 3Faithians.
This is when i'd say, i don't know if it's the right choice.

People leaving weird, uncalled for kind of tags,
people un-happy about the skin or url, or issues like that.
I wonder why i actually gave in and created one.
Anyway it's not as if you can't change the layout, post, tag.
It's open to anyone.

But no one seems to bother,
then why on earth,
am i the one bothering,
why am i
even bothered by their reactions.

Whatever the problem,
i'd say think for yourself.
Don't make a fuss over things, if you aren't going to do anything about it yourself?
Every human has a heart, that contains feelings,
including me.

I'm only holding on to a friendship,
don't count that as a classmate or schoolmate.
Sometimes i wish my mind would not wonder,
because i hate a sudden wonder thought,
i hate realising a new 'fact',
when would people actually learn to live in harmony?
And accept each other just for the way they are?

Thankyou, for the wonderful time we had together,
but it's all over now,
go ahead and enjoy the time you spend with your new found friend,
i wish you the best.

'I want to be in that position, would it come true?'